Looking into his eyes
I see beyond the bounds of me
Trust was implicit from the start
in the comfort of his hand
upon the small of my back
Now I find myself vulnerable
in a place I yearn not to be
Insecurities for all to see
I gave my trust
Without question
No reservation
He held back the truth
For fear I would run?
Or perhaps he was afraid
I’d ask something of him
He wasn’t ready to do
No longer absolute
About what to believe
A single lie by omission
or intuition’s built-in protection?
Not wanting this to bring us to an end
Yet I can’t risk losing myself in another
Again
So I’m left navigating my heart’s divide
{Update} Learning to trust again was so hard, and so worth it. I think I will always be timid because of my life experiences, but I am determined not to make the same mistakes. I know that I have found the right person to entrust my heart to, and I have faith that no matter what happens, we are capable of loving each other the way we all deserve to be loved.